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2003-12-09 at 4:36 p.m. - poo bam fan

You have a mysterious kiss. Your partner never
knows what you're going to come up with next;
this creates great excitement and arousal never
knowing what to expect. And it's sure to end
in a kiss as great as your mystery.

What kind of kiss are you?
brought to you by Quizilla Laura says:

hey sista! how's it goin?

kristennetsirk says:

well i'm fine, but life is sort of messed up

Laura says:

why? what's up?

kristennetsirk says:

well there has been several arguements between elsbe and meandjake

Laura says:

all three at once? or separate arguments?

kristennetsirk says:

and last night jake called elsbe and excummunicated himself from that circle fo friends

Laura says:

what? i thought you all had been friends for a long time?!

kristennetsirk says:

i found out yesterday that all my close friends hate jake

Laura says:

oh crap! why?

kristennetsirk says:

we have

Laura says:

do you think it could be jelousy?

kristennetsirk says:

well yes, bc landa told me that elsbe still liked him but i'm not suppose to know and here lately

kristennetsirk says:

everyone seems to be keeping stuff from each other, hence the i'm not suppose to know bit

kristennetsirk says:

and apparently bob told elsbe that since me and jake have been going out "everything has gone to crap" i don't notice anything being different at all

kristennetsirk says:

so yah there is a lot goig on, and now jake won't go to any group outing elsbe is at

Laura says:

well, you've been kristen for a long time, and now you're kristen and jake, and that is probably really hard on your friends because you're such an impotant person in their lives and they depend on you to be there for them, but you have to have a life of your own too!

kristennetsirk says:

i know, and landa says that i'm no longer my self that i am him and myself, i dont notice that but , i guess she has known me long enogh to tell,

kristennetsirk says:

she says i have no opinions of my own anymore

kristennetsirk says:

which is NOT true, jake and i are very diff on several things

Laura says:

that's a big problem...but you know better!

kristennetsirk says:

yup, so i don't really know what i shoudl do now, especially with elsbe

Laura says:

hey babe...i've actually got to go...i have to follow jeff in a tractor to his friends farm

kristennetsirk says:

we were going to go to this slegh ride on the plaza but she isn't going bc jake is going

kristennetsirk says:

ok have fun

Laura says:

i'm sure you guys are good enough friends to have a long sit down and discuss this....if she really cares about you as a person, she'll put aside her feelings. it's easy for me to say, but hard to do. i've been on both sids of this before and they both suck.

kristennetsirk says:

yup,

kristennetsirk says:

have funwith taht tractor ! buddy

kristennetsirk says:

talk later

Laura says:

i wish there was an easy solution...are you on here most nites? evenings?

kristennetsirk says:

yup just about every night so it seems lately

Laura says:

i'll try to catch up with you soon, 'kay? keep me posted with emails if you want and i'll respond that way. are you sitll writing in that diary?

kristennetsirk says:

yes

Laura says:

miss you babe, talk to you soon

kristennetsirk says:

k bye buddy

Laura says:

bye buddy

kristennetsirk says:

lol

There is a lot of stuff in this entry that I'm not suppose to know, but we all know that in a close group or friends, like a small town, ya gonna find out somehow, sometime. So sorry. I just really needed so advice from my older sista. and i now get to exercise that "its my diary i should be able to type what i think and not censor" thing that gets brought up alot, and jake u can kiss my butt about that.

I was talking to jake today about what he did. I don't think what he did last night was right. I understand his side of everything, but he seems to always be so extreme when it comes to dealing with things. I can't get over the fact that he said he didn't care if he ever saw her again. That just wasn't right. What brought him to completely demolishing the friendship he had with her?...? I think he is lacking of understanding and empathy when it comes to recent group things. I know what he kept refering to the last time we all got together and saw the movie and then went to Chili's, when i was talking to him about it today during math. That evening was messed up in many ways as i've said in a previous entry, so why he was basing the value of a whole friendship on the crapiness of communication of one night- i don't know. I do know that our group of friends lately has obviously had so major communication issues. And we have all changed a little in our own ways. Maybe we as a group haven't recognized this fully. I mean in landa's entry last night, i was sort of hurt that it was always kristenandjake. I honestly do NOT mean to portray that. I just need to readjust my time. I need to have friend time, and boyfriend time. That is definitly eveident now since i am the only one in this group of friends that can deal with the guy. I mean if you had a boyfriend you would want to spend time with him right? I just haven't had the need to divide my time like this for a long time, and all my good friends know that i can't do alot of weekend stuff because of my parents (and laundry-the REAL ruling force in my life). Back to the night at Chili's. Jake went so we could all talk about stuff and that never really happened. I don't think any of us knew where to begin really and the convo never got started. I didn't know that bob thought things had changed so much and gone down hill so bad until yesterday. She hides that well. Jake asked her at break today if she liked him. Of course bob took it in the most literal meaning and said he wasn't her type. She said she liked him only as a friend. So maybe i have one friend who can sort of deal with him, but just doesn't like my lack of time for friends management plans.

Well i think i'm going to stop typing now, bc dinner is done...and i know i will be hearing more aboutthis subject shortly.

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