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2004-03-30 at 8:23 p.m. - my life with friends of late...* rolls eyes*

and i breathe no more says:

back, though youre not.

*netsirk* says:

be right here, i just like ssang the high note so well my front teeth vibrated adn it sounded really good, imma do it one more time b4 i quit fo rtonight

and i breathe no more says:

lol, alright. understandable.

*netsirk* says:

ok hi

and i breathe no more says:

hi.

and i breathe no more says:

am i dying?

*netsirk* says:

u tell me, are u wounded and didn't tell me

and i breathe no more says:

well i DID hurt my elbow hella bad this morning... living with an ice pack strapped to my arm right now -_-

*netsirk* says:

Landa in ur entry u didn't say anythig i wasn't already expecting u to say except for parts of the changing thing...

and i breathe no more says:

my eddabow huts. i tink i bote it.

*netsirk* says:

lol

and i breathe no more says:

yeah well. you seriously seem to be.

and i breathe no more says:

and i wanted to be sure you knew about that.

and i breathe no more says:

if nothing else.

*netsirk* says:

well ur the only one who seems to notice far as i know

and i breathe no more says:

someone else was telling it too... about as long as i have.

and i breathe no more says:

you can likely guess who -_-;;

*netsirk* says:

if elsbe...not going there nevermind

and i breathe no more says:

go there, really. not as if she doesn't end up talking to me giving feedback on things i say or write about you.

*netsirk* says:

grrrrrreat

and i breathe no more says:

and i've been noticing since around the beginning of last year.

and i breathe no more says:

she started picking up on it later on, though not too much later.

*netsirk* says:

she doesn't ever see me, how would she know, if it wasn't biased coming from u?

and i breathe no more says:

if it makes you feel better i attempt to get any side i can see/think of said when i say things.

and i breathe no more says:

but i have no clue.

and i breathe no more says:

she was noticing last year though, as far as i know.

*netsirk* says:

*rolls eyes*

and i breathe no more says:

saw that one coming a mile away.

*netsirk* says:

good

and i breathe no more says:

so... what is this as of now?

*netsirk* says:

...um...well i'm not mad, i'm currently in that i-don't-want-to-deal-with-this stage, but yet i am just tired of all the crap I get because of JAKE

and i breathe no more says:

not all of this is due to jake.

and i breathe no more says:

to be quite honest.

*netsirk* says:

well what exactly isn't somehow construed(sp?) as being related to me ddating him

*netsirk* says:

thinking i see...

and i breathe no more says:

the fact that i was noticing this before then.

*netsirk* says:

*eyes..*

and i breathe no more says:

though someone ::coughcough:: is seeming to think that he's had a bit to do with it.

*netsirk* says:

yeah yeah yeah

*netsirk* says:

so i'm changing, its not illegal ya know

and i breathe no more says:

i had nothing to do with that train of thought, as far as i know. there's bit a bit more since him, but still.

and i breathe no more says:

not too much.

*netsirk* says:

though i dont really see how i'm changing all that much

and i breathe no more says:

yeah well, it's seeming like more change than before.

and i breathe no more says:

some people can't pick up on that on their own.

*netsirk* says:

the panic of being thrust into the real world is getting worse as may 24 draws neat

*netsirk* says:

*near

*netsirk* says:

why is it imoportant for me to see this change?

and i breathe no more says:

i know, hence my feeling bad for saying this now.

and i breathe no more says:

just so.. you know it's happening, i suppose.

*netsirk* says:

and this is suppose to make me mad, u telling i've changed, but not saying how

*netsirk* says:

this makes since

*netsirk* says:

not

and i breathe no more says:

i'm not saying it's supposed to make you mad, i was scared it would.

and i breathe no more says:

and i thought i told you how.

*netsirk* says:

and i breathe no more says:

:: sigh::

*netsirk* says:

and i breathe no more says:

oi. don't start that with me.

*netsirk* says:

so how should, i act in the morning, since obvioulsly being my changed self is not a good thing around you, i'll have to create another button to change from landakristen, to everyoneelsekristen

and i breathe no more says:

forget i said anything.

*netsirk* says:

oh right

and i breathe no more says:

all i'm saying to that one is 'can we say ouch>'

and i breathe no more says:

*netsirk* says:

well landa, i didn't mean to hurt u, but i'm not seeing anythign i can do about this, i mean what do u expectme to do

and i breathe no more says:

i'm not expecting you to do anythign, i was just telling you i guess.

and i breathe no more says:

it's not like you CAN do anything.

*netsirk* says:

uh...*shakes head*...i don't know what i'm suppose to take away from this experience

and i breathe no more says:

nothing. just forget that it happened and pretend that nothing was ever said of it.

*netsirk* says:

oh right so then u can go and say u backed down again...

and i breathe no more says:

as if that's not a normal occurance.

*netsirk* says:

well...u wrote about it

and i breathe no more says:

nice to know that the 'landa mind-reading sense' still works.

and i breathe no more says:

well.. i don't know.

*netsirk* says:

and i breathe no more says:

i'm just meant to be a doormat in life i suppose.

and i breathe no more says:

and wo0t someone smiled -_-

*netsirk* says:

did u say everytihing u wanted to

and i breathe no more says:

i don't know.

and i breathe no more says:

i can't remember anymore.

*netsirk* says:

well then

and i breathe no more says:

i'd had a lot to say but it disappeared.

*netsirk* says:

well i dont know what to tell you

and i breathe no more says:

you don't have to.

*netsirk* says:

write it down so u'll remember it

and i breathe no more says:

if i remember it i plan on it.

and i breathe no more says:

that's why it took me two days to write.

*netsirk* says:

oh an di guess we can pretty much conjecture that the polygon of truth has been some what dissolved of late

and i breathe no more says:

we need a new one.

*netsirk* says:

but do u see a similarity with the last reason for a truth shape

and i breathe no more says:

yeah i do.

*netsirk* says:

k just checking...

and i breathe no more says:

though this time it really does seem like more me and you... elsbe just feeds into it and such, which she really doesn't need to do.

and i breathe no more says:

i'd really like to think on my own one day.

*netsirk* says:

hmmm

and i breathe no more says:

let's just put it this way. i'd only thought of telling you all of this until i talked ot her yesterday.

and i breathe no more says:

*to

and i breathe no more says:

well, before yesterday.

and i breathe no more says:

she's an influence whether i like it or not sometimes.

*netsirk* says:

and i breathe no more says:

well then.

and i breathe no more says:

::yawns at you too::

*netsirk* says:

and i breathe no more says:

*netsirk* says:

and no

and i breathe no more says:

i'm sorry..

and i breathe no more says:

yeah, why do i feel really guilty now?

*netsirk* says:

don't i'm not mad, sort of indifferent to all this, as it isn't the first time i've heard all this

and i breathe no more says:

mur.

and i breathe no more says:

makes meh feel worse as i've said it before and brought it up again.

*netsirk* says:

well there is just no pleasing u tonight *said jokingly*

and i breathe no more says:

ha.

and i breathe no more says:

:: sighs::

and i breathe no more says:

i'm not made out to be anything but the doormat.

and i breathe no more says:

there's times when it's cute that i try, but aside from that it doesn't really happen.

and i breathe no more says:

i'm pathetic. it's that simple.

and i breathe no more says:

..::adjusts ice pack so it's not cutting off circulation::

*netsirk* says:

and yet (don't get mad) if i agreed then would u storm away because i said exactly what u said

and i breathe no more says:

no i wouldn't.

and i breathe no more says:

actually.

and i breathe no more says:

certain things get to me, and the facker seems to have learned my triggers.

*netsirk* says:

or maybe is phycological an d u just wan t him to so u can have another reason along with elsbe to dislike...wait...hate him

and i breathe no more says:

or maybe he's been doing it since eighth or nineth grade.

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it was happening before i really knew you liked him. we just NEVER got along.

*netsirk* says:

and u can' tignore him as i overlook some of your qualities

*netsirk* says:

the bunny thign, now i remember

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even before then we didn't really.

*netsirk* says:

....well

and i breathe no more says:

i can't ignore it.. there isn't really much for me to not ignore.

and i breathe no more says:

and i'm sure he'd probably say something close to the same thing about me.

*netsirk* says:

actually, this morning after u left he said...

*netsirk* says:

he should have taken into account that you take things so to heart, but u just called him an ass and he got over it so he didn't feel as if he should since you seem so easy when calleing him an ass

and i breathe no more says:

then i'm just gonna shut up around him 'cause if i say anythign it'll get bad.

and i breathe no more says:

to be honest.

*netsirk* says:

well at least he was thinking about being more considerate of ur feelings

and i breathe no more says:

i don't wanna make htings worse, okay?

and i breathe no more says:

*things

*netsirk* says:

k whatever...u want

and i breathe no more says:

i shouldn't have said a word.

*netsirk* says:

a word a word a word

and i breathe no more says:

mur. you know what imean.

*netsirk* says:

yeah

and i breathe no more says:

i swear if it weren't so late in high school and i had a chance i'd find somewhere else to go in the mornings..

and i breathe no more says:

'cause it would obviously do some good at this point.

*netsirk* says:

u still could if it is such a prob

*netsirk* says:

though we are going to strt uno turnaments in the mornings, shame u'll miss them

*netsirk* says:

j/k...well sort of

and i breathe no more says:

o_O

and i breathe no more says:

i looked around today... i don't fit in anywhere.

and i breathe no more says:

anywhere at all, really.

*netsirk* says:

what about the group that was outside last year?

*netsirk* says:

we sort of separated ourselves this year

*netsirk* says:

but still

*netsirk* says:

i dont' know what to tell you, you could always go the library

*netsirk* says:

and i breathe no more says:

group outside last year graduated, lol.

and i breathe no more says:

keh.

*netsirk* says:

not all of them

and i breathe no more says:

actually, they're all inside.

*netsirk* says:

i know, we migrated...

and i breathe no more says:

yeah really..

and i breathe no more says:

i went out there for a couple minutes this morning. it was too quiet.

*netsirk* says:

collect ur thoughts.

*netsirk* says:

oh schuckman thought she saw crackhead cleatis on the plaza

*netsirk* says:

it was funny

and i breathe no more says:

lmao

and i breathe no more says:

that probably would be.

and i breathe no more says:

it was eerily quiet.

and i breathe no more says:

aside from the 8th graders at the dor.

and i breathe no more says:

*door

*netsirk* says:

i see its near nine

*netsirk* says:

imma go take my shower

and i breathe no more says:

yeah it is.

*netsirk* says:

dont know if i'll se ya in themornin or not

and i breathe no more says:

don't know where i'm goin'.. prolly go over there 'till her gets there again or something.

*netsirk* says:

i think i have a fever now

*netsirk* says:

great

and i breathe no more says:

that appears to work well.. might just go outside.

and i breathe no more says:

o_o

and i breathe no more says:

poor kristen.

*netsirk* says:

face is burining warm

*netsirk* says:

of corse my hands are ice cold so...

and i breathe no more says:

oi.

and i breathe no more says:

:: pokity:: you.

and i breathe no more says:

get better.

*netsirk* says:

bye sis

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