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2004-12-10 at 7:45 p.m. - a convo, i know i don't usually put these in here, oh well

A convo i had with my buddy Adam earlier today...
I guess it is that obvious. Why am i so willing to forgive him and just go on like nothing bad happened? He had not been good enough for that...

adam : Hola!
cocacolakec@sbcglobal.net: hi
adam : hows life?
cocacolakec@sbcglobal.net: well, its...alive?...and ok i guess, found out i got an 85 on my chemistry lab final so i'm pretty happy
cocacolakec@sbcglobal.net: and i only have one final left
adam : i haven't even started finals yet... have 2 monday, one tuesday, and my last one wednesday
cocacolakec@sbcglobal.net: u going home after them wed or thurs?
cocacolakec@sbcglobal.net: mine is on monday
adam : thursday
adam : i want to go home sooner, but i can't.... i am treasurer for my whole res hall and people are going to be coming to me wanting money before break
cocacolakec@sbcglobal.net: hey hook me up! i want money!!!!!!!!!!
cocacolakec@sbcglobal.net: how did u get that job
adam : got voted in!
cocacolakec@sbcglobal.net: no way
cocacolakec@sbcglobal.net: u!
adam : i even get paid $125 each semester!
cocacolakec@sbcglobal.net: sweet
adam : don't sound so shocked
cocacolakec@sbcglobal.net: i'm jus kiddin
cocacolakec@sbcglobal.net: so what cha up to?
adam : studying for finals... fun way to spend my friday night
cocacolakec@sbcglobal.net: oh yeah
cocacolakec@sbcglobal.net: we didn't have class today or yesterday, they were "reading days"
cocacolakec@sbcglobal.net: so i slept tillnoon
adam : that would be nice
adam : wish i could sleep. i've been sick and haven't slept worth crap
cocacolakec@sbcglobal.net: didn't get out of pjs till 4 when a buddy and i wanted food
cocacolakec@sbcglobal.net: oh sorry, get better danggit
adam : i hope so... need energy for finals and want to be healthy when i go home
cocacolakec@sbcglobal.net: thats always good

adam : yeah... hey, i meant to ask you something last time i talked to you and forgot...
adam : how are things going with you and Jake. I haven't talked to you in a while
cocacolakec@sbcglobal.net: oh lord that is such a long story... do u really want to hear all this
adam : don't know how much time i will have, but you can start.
adam : friend of mine is supposed to call soon then i gots to go
cocacolakec@sbcglobal.net: um ok...
cocacolakec@sbcglobal.net: well, he never seems to call...i seem to just be his weekend gf and then
cocacolakec@sbcglobal.net: he's made promises BIG promises and didn' tkeep them
cocacolakec@sbcglobal.net: everyone is telling me to dump him
cocacolakec@sbcglobal.net: my mom all but made me dump him
cocacolakec@sbcglobal.net: he has just not been very good, what bf doesn't see his gf over thanksgiving break!!!!!!
cocacolakec@sbcglobal.net: he lives 20 min away
cocacolakec@sbcglobal.net: i mean good lord right!
adam : why are you still with him?
adam : i don't know him very well, but it sounds to me like you deserve better, kristen
cocacolakec@sbcglobal.net: then he promised to make it up to me and drive up here and see me some time that week, he didn't, it was friday and he hadn't called...
cocacolakec@sbcglobal.net: i know, everyone keeps telling me this,,,i hate being some kind of dopey girl trailing behind him...its not cute
cocacolakec@sbcglobal.net: but i still hope he is going to get better , but it just doesn't seem to be happening
adam : if it hasn't gotten better by now, i don't think it is going to
cocacolakec@sbcglobal.net: he said he was going to drive and see me this past monday but called and said the day of that he had othr stuff come up, and ended with "have a nice week"
cocacolakec@sbcglobal.net: ok why do i only get weekend calls from him
cocacolakec@sbcglobal.net: and not even those most of the time
cocacolakec@sbcglobal.net: i reallly DON'T know why i'm still with him
cocacolakec@sbcglobal.net: but i've been guy shopping as Meagan calls it...(not hauser) and he is gettin the boot if he isn't better over winter break
adam : hmmmm.....
cocacolakec@sbcglobal.net: so tahts it in a nut shell
cocacolakec@sbcglobal.net: oh and he blames me for the not seeing him over thanksgiving thing
cocacolakec@sbcglobal.net: that upset me a LOT
adam : sounds like he doesn't care very much
cocacolakec@sbcglobal.net: yes, very inconsiderate...like he doesn't know how to treat a gf, i mean to a point i understand that i'm his first gf and all but dang, he should be considerate enough to call and stuff
adam : yeah... after i moved to liberty, you and i talked at least every other night or so, didn't we?
cocacolakec@sbcglobal.net: yes, we made time to
cocacolakec@sbcglobal.net: he doesn't even seem to want to try taht
adam : and we were 8th graders!
cocacolakec@sbcglobal.net: i understand school comes first but he could make some time
cocacolakec@sbcglobal.net: !!!!!
cocacolakec@sbcglobal.net: maybe he thinks of me too much as a friend and not a gf
adam : I usually talk to jennifer about an hour a night (at least)
cocacolakec@sbcglobal.net: yeah, Meagan's bf does too
adam : maybe you should talk to him about that... if you ever talk to him
cocacolakec@sbcglobal.net: he even calls to wake her up so she doen't use her alarm clock
cocacolakec@sbcglobal.net: i just get to talk to his voicemail 89% of the time it seems
cocacolakec@sbcglobal.net: adn he is always "out", or meeting a friend, usually a girl, for a "study session"
cocacolakec@sbcglobal.net: i'm not saying he is lieing
cocacolakec@sbcglobal.net: but dang
cocacolakec@sbcglobal.net: his campus is 70% female
cocacolakec@sbcglobal.net: he could spare tiem
adam : one of them being my best friend@
adam : !
adam : yes, he should make time!!!!!
cocacolakec@sbcglobal.net: i just don't think i register on his list of priorities
adam : then i don't think he deserves to be your b/f if you aren't one of his priorities!
cocacolakec@sbcglobal.net: thats what i've been turning over in my mind
adam : not to be rude, but i think its kinda obvious isn't it?
cocacolakec@sbcglobal.net: yeah...
adam : i just got that phone call... i need to go
cocacolakec@sbcglobal.net: ok
adam : hope you get things worked out
cocacolakec@sbcglobal.net: me too!
cocacolakec@sbcglobal.net: talk later,
cocacolakec@sbcglobal.net: see u over break?!
adam : e-mail me and let me know if you need to chat/vent or anything
cocacolakec@sbcglobal.net: k
adam : sounds like a good idea.... i will find some time to call you after the family leaves
cocacolakec@sbcglobal.net: ok bye buddy
adam : adios amiga

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