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I think that all this talk about finding the right guy is a bunch of bull-log-nah! Here goes my rant about guys that i never thought i'd have. I really don't know what got me on it but any hoo---
Guys! I mean to they intentionally set out to be losers and gross beings? Must they be so arrogant, and think of themselves all the freakin' time?!! Why is that?
Are there ... decent guys out there? In my very small spectrum of experience i have to say i've been pretty lucky. One guy was extremely sweet, but didn't always seem to say what he really meant. Another was a nice guy, lacked on the thoughtfulness...a lot, and definitely conveyed that he was #1 in his agenda. The jury is still out on the third guy up for observation. He has been creepy, needy, clingy and overbearing. Maybe that is due to my change in what i want and the fact that i managed to find ANOTHER guy for which i was the first kiss/girlfriend (though we never officially got past dating so girlfriend isn't really correct but u get the idea).
So i come to my confusing state of mind: i want to be unattached, but i want to have a guy. Does this make any sense at all? no...
I would like to be that single, independent person but i also want the benefits of being in a relationship. I want to look forward to conversations and dinners . And just for clarification this is not bc of Valentine's Day coming ever closer. Nope i already have tdht day planned, chocolate, teddy bear, sparkling grape juice, movies, and my buddy Meagan. Movie night in Meagan's dorm. I had to give her a hard time about it though because she has a boyfriend he is just in Rolla. But she said i needed to cut her a break because this is the first Valentine's day she has had a boyfriend so i had to sympathize.
Well the guy previouslly described and being devoid of thoughtfulness just IMed me. I haven't talked talked to him since the day we broke up. Which is about two months...dang its been that long. What have i been doing? Ah well.
end stupid, not well thought out entry
P.S. typos can be attibuted to my computer being dead and me using a laptop. I hate the keyboard and keep hitting the little thing that makes the pointer move.
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